John Scudder
In the 1970's, an Illinois healer who is a very down to earth fellow named John Scudder, thought he had some indigestion. He began to undergo such intense symptoms that his heartbeat could be heard by the person next to him. He began to feel pressure on his head, see waves of color, and hear a roar like Niagara Falls. "There was nothing that could be done for me medically, and there was nothing that could be done psychically. All I could do was hold on, waiting and hoping for an end to the terror.
It was then that I thought of a quote from the Book of Job, 'Though he slay me, yet will I trust him.'" John has written, "My mind became so sensitive that I could actually sense the thoughts of anyone in the room with me. If there was more than one person, I could sense their individual thoughts.
My third eye became so sensitive that even while sitting in my chair in my living room, I could see every room in my house as if the walls were made of glass. If my children were watching television downstairs or studying in their bedroom, I could see them without any difficulty at all."
John was burning up. He would wrap his head in cold wet towels, but the intensity of the internal burning was torture for three weeks. When it was over, he felt clean. He was clean inside and out. Indeed, his force was so intensified, that when he put his hands on someone to heal them they usually lost consciousness for a short time.
"I may sound melodramatic," he says, "but if you have had the experience, you know that your life hangs by the thinnest strand of thread. It is as close to dying as a human can come and still survive." Scudder would not have invited an orthodox doctor to treat him.
Kundalini can bring us into sublime experience and can run us through the ringer, leaving us gasping. It may be as dramatic as this experience, and it may seem relatively bland. No matter how uncomfortable we feel, it is not necessarily a sign of pathology. We are awfully quick to assign pathological labels.
Winston Churchill, speaking to the anxious British population during World War II, said wisely, "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." We need to apply this wisdom to our contact with the process of kundalini. Fear is the one thing that can make it more difficult.
At Nine Gates Mystery School there have been a number of people who experienced strong symptoms, such as shaking, crying, and exhibiting manic behavior. They were simply held and grounded for as long as they needed. Two people who had previously experienced being thrown into a mental institution watched this process with amazement.
They would not have needed to be tortured with drugs and restraints had the people around them understood the nature of kundalini, or even just been unafraid. In response to fear, we tighten our muscles, produce more adrenalin, and actually amplify the symptoms.
Continue to Insight Three: Process of Spiritual Awakening